Dear God, you really did wait….
One of my first heartbreaks happened the Sunday I realized Travis Greene is actually married with kids.
I had fallen in love with him so much, I had imagined severally that I would mother his kids and we'd live happily ever after in Dallas, Texas or wherever he resided in the states.
This love started to bud the moment I heard his popular song - You Waited
I loved the song so much that I started to love the married man who sang it.
I first heard the song when I was somewhere around the age of 15 or 16 and it has been many years later, but it still remains one of my favorite things to listen to…
Today on Sunday the 18th of May, at around 4am I was up worshipping, praying and preparing for church service as I usually would and this song dropped in my spirit…
After the first and second listen, I literally started bawling on my bed because it suddenly dawned on me…
As a teenager, I would wail the lyrics to this song…literally lol
“Where would I be, If you'd left me God?
Where would I be, if you'd left me God?
Where would I be, if you'd left me God?
But you…. waited! You waited….”
I would lift my hands and scream it, then I'd turn to my family members and say, “chai! I love this man ehn…”
Undisputed, I do love the song and the man too (with the love of Christ now cause he's married lol) but the strong connection I had to it wasn't about the song, the man or the melodies…it was about the truth.
As I worshipped on that Sunday, while I sang those words; You Waited…all of a sudden, I realized that…
Lord, you were actually waiting.
You really did wait for me!
Through my foolishness, my growth process, my initial refusal to have anything to do with you, your work or your house, my wild ambitions and passions and even my reluctance and lukewarmness… You really did wait!
While I shouted “you waited”, I can imagine the expression on your face, knowing fully well that you were actually waiting…
Today I'm not asking questions or laying any compliants…
I just want to express pure gratitude.
Thank you for waiting for me!
Honestly, I wouldn't have waited for me. I would have grown old, tired and probably insane too from all my baggage and wahala lol
But not you…even while everyone else left and wrote me off and made predictions of how my life would end, you didn't leave, you were still waiting!
Even when I was on my way to fulfilling their many false prophecies, you weren't discouraged, you still waited.
After I had lost touch with my light and had become a shadow of myself; angry and bitter at the entire world, you didn't lose hope, you didn't give up on me, you were still waiting…
And when it pleased you, you eventually drew me to yourself.
Dear God, like the song says, I genuinely don't want to think of where I would have been or what I would have become if not for your patience with waiting for me.
Thank you for waiting for me to have sense.
Thank you for not believing the worse about me like everyone else.
Thank you for seeing the possibility of good in me even when at the time, I was hell bent on showing everyone what a rotten fruit I am…
Thank you very much. I'm truly grateful.
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God typing….
“Kikikiki lol (learnt this one from you)
Oh my sweet girl…who wouldn't wait for you knowing the treasures buried on your inside…
Sofia, I waited because I saw you.
When I sent Samuel to go and anoint one of Jesse's sons, he saw like a man.
He checked appearance and records and he concluded saying, “surely, this must be the Lord's anointed”
But I wasn't checking out those men, I had checked in them and didn't find what I was looking for.
While men judged your actions and made their many predictions, I checked in with your intentions and also made my decision…
I decided that come what may, this one would live, serve and die for me. So I began chasing after you…
And I'd be lying if I said you weren't excellent at running
You had perfected the art so much, that it took almost 2 decades of your life to finally get your attention…
But I had already made up my mind about you earlier on so I watched and waited…
Yes I did watch…I saw everything!
The days when you were happy and overwhelmed with excitement…
The days when you cried yourself to sleep, thinking you were all alone…
The days when you struggled and those when you excelled…
I was always at a corner the whole time, watching and waiting for the right opportunity.
I did try severally to get at you but you weren't ready…
I tried when you were younger, but you were tooooooo playful to notice me…
I came back when you were a teenager, working through grief and a pain you didn't understand. I thought it would be my perfect shot…but you were too angry to entertain me.
I tried again when you had grown much older, a big girl now, had cut herself off from everyone, wanted to build & do big things…I thought to myself “perfect! surely she'll see the need for me now”
Lol nope! You had become absorbed with money, beauty, fame and the art of revenge.
You were too busy plotting your comeback mission, and I just knew I had to wait a while longer…
After many many years Cheta, I finally have your attention.
I finally have the opportunity to hone your gifts and harness your light, as I should have started doing from day 1 of your birth if only I had been given the opportunity.
It's been a long, bumpy and exciting ride and after a few years of communing with you, my testimony remains and my decision has not changed.
Although you're one hell of a child lol, I don't regret my choice of you and I have not changed my mind about you.
You're a light that has been set upon a hill and baby, on my word, you will shine!
You will shine so bright, the world will bend a knee at the wonder-working ability of God to create such a spectacle in human form.
You will shine so bright, the world will need medicated glasses to watch.
Your light is not just another element, it is a force and as long as I remain it's custodian, no one living or dead will be able to stand against it.
Sofia, you're fire and the nations will burn for Jesus on your account.
You just stay with me and watch what beauty I'll create with your life.
Stay with me Sofia…”
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