Dear God, there is this emptiness on my inside. I desperately crave satisfaction….
I don't know how long I've felt this…probably all my life. I don't know how it came about.
I have spent money, bought clothes, shoes, bags, jewelries, and even food, but nothing, absolutely nothing satisfies.
I go through all of these mundane experiences, looking for something to fill an opening that is deep within me, but after everything, I am still cold on the inside.
There is a kind of warmth that I seek, this cozy feeling deep below your abdomen, a combination of butterflies and goosebumps. It is the feeling of completion.
The feeling of a gap being bridged, a void being occupied.
It's like I'm constantly trying to reach something, but everytime I stretch for it, it eludes me, always beyond my grasp.
It's a feeling of “Je ne sais quoi” but not in a good way.
Most times, I really don't know what, or why, or how, or anything even…
I just know there is a part of me that longs for something with depth, something that can fill from the inside out, something that makes me belch from absolute satisfaction.
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God typing….
“Sofia, nothing was designed to satisfy you outside of me! A being cannot survive outside its source.
When you take the fish out of the water, it dies.
When you take the plant out of the soil, it withers.
When you take yourself out of me, something dies on your inside, something leaves you and that creates a void within you.
All your struggles arise from the fact that you refuse to submit to this simple fact.
You keep chasing after new experiences, new people, new responsibilities, seeking warmth and fulfillment, but all you get and will ever get are short-lived euphorias that leave as quick as they come.
The human soul is like a vast well with a limitless depth. All of these superficial concepts are too shallow and too little to fill up this depth.
I made it in such a way that only a limitless God can satisfy a limitless being.
I am your source and you were not designed to find satisfaction from anything outside of me.
I don't just possess the capacity to satisfy you, I am your satisfaction. I am your fulfillment.
I am the only way you can experience true joy, fulfillment and satisfaction.
You must accept this reality and stop all of the games.
This hide and seek is tiring. Aren't you exhausted?
It's time to come back to your source.
It's time to return to a life of fellowship and intimacy with me.
Come back to abiding in my presence and sitting at my feet.
You know from the story of Mary and Martha in the bible, you can see God's perspective of what really matters.
Martha did her best to make Jesus feel comfortable, cooking, preparing and cleaning.
Now from a human perspective, you'd assume Martha was doing a great job, but Jesus commended Mary for being smart enough to do the right thing.
What was the right thing?
Sitting at the master's feet and listening to his words.
This is what really matters.
The satisfaction you so desperately seek is at my feet.
The warmth you crave is right here at my feet.
The joy and peace you desire is at my feet Sofie.
If you can just come back to being my “Mary”, being the one who sits and listens, there is nothing you desire that will elude you.
Listen, I am not necessarily thrilled by the things that you do for me, but the things you do with me.
I am not necessarily impressed by the length of time you can pray or the number of days you can fast for.
I am more impressed by the time spent with me in genuine intimacy and fellowship.
So, Yield Sofia. Yield!
Stop seeking from men what only I, the Lord can give.
It will only end in consistent disappointments, heart break, and frustrations.
It's time to come back to your source.
This is where true satisfaction lies”
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